happy birthday to me!!!

today is my 18 birthday. and the weird thing is that even though i had been excited a week ago, today im not. im not excited at all. im sick as hell too. i didnt sleep last night cause i kept waking up coughing even though i took tylenol pm. im having to blow my nose every five minutes. and i feel like shit.
i have the best roommates ever though. when i woke up this morning (around 5am) outside my door they had decorated the whole hallway. they had balloons and shit hanging from the ceiling. and they had drawn cute pics saying happy birthday. it was all so cute.

my parents are coming up in about an hour. i have to get ready. i dont want to go out. i want to go back to bed and go back to sleep.

and to top it all off, i miss my mom like crazy. i know that im supposed to have dealt with it all and gotten over it. but i havent. and i dont think i'll ever will. i would be sleeping in my mother's bed. and she would be hugging me and singing in my ear. i miss her so much.